THE DAY AFTER THE DAY

It’s April 21st 2021 and it’s the day after 4/20 which is a symbol of “stoner’s” everywhere. Well I dived in and enjoyed the day best I could lol. I celebrated the occasion with The Real Cannabis Entrepreneur group out of New Jersey and hopped in with my Hi-Curious family off and on. I participated in a Bob Marley smoke off contest where we had to puff every time the phrase “we be jamming” was heard. Any hoo I totally won!!! I out-puffed my way through two rounds and now I get the prize! Which I don’t have the faintest idea what it is. I just know I enjoyed myself and meeting and talking with people that enjoy celebrating the way I do.

I woke up today to write down how I feel about 21 April 2021, this is the day AFTER the George Floyd verdict was announced. How do I feel about it? I think it’s well overdue and I feel we must be vigilant in our way ahead as it pertains to this movement. I want to speak from my point of view, as a black women with two sons. I AM HAPPY THIS PERSON WAS CONVICTED!!! I said it and I meant it, no one HUMAN BEING should be treated like Mr. Floyd was treated. It is so disheartening that I was AFRAID to watch the trail, I just wasn’t confident that person would get convicted. I see everyone celebrating the verdict and I feel it is ABSOLUTELY a victory. I also feel like while it is a victory we have to stay mindful of all the other work that needs to be done. I feel so passionate about this and want to help in anyway I can. I am currently just wanting, I haven’t moved beyond a “want” versus a “do”.

Ok so a good way to segue into this topic!!!!! Most days I work really hard trying to get myself to leave my house. Oh My God, I said it out loud…..crazy right? I don’t really care because I recognized this habit of mine as it started to form back in 2016. I returned from a deployment 2015-16 from Afghanistan and it was easier for me to feel safe in my own home. I had been in and out of the US but one thing that changed was the ability to have ANYTHING delivered right to your door. This made it so easy to get very comfortable staying in my home. So basically I went to work ( I was still Active duty) and I came home and ordered what I needed to be comfortable. Once I realized the hole I was digging myself into was NOT where I wanted to be. Ya’ll when I tell you I purposely planned outings so I could say to self” you went out”. I kept at it until I didn’t have to force myself to do it. At the end of the day I was able to work it out, but not until I acknowledged there was a problem. It’s a constant battle but I take it one day at a time. Facing ones fears for me is always a positive thing, even if it takes me more than once to face it!

George Floyd didn’t get Justice…….his family did, I saw this on Social media somewhere so it’s not mine, but nevertheless it couldn’t be a more true statement.

So April 20 2021 was an interesting, enlightening, suspenseful day, now let’s see what happens next.